Birthday was pretty damn grand. Dustin took me to the olive garden and then we got back home at around 9 and it was pretty much a surprise party. Really fricken sweet. Dustin, Phillip, Renee, Joseph, Eric, Amanda, Jesse and Tim. Got there kinda late but I loved seeing everyone. It was the only birthday I've ever had where I actually had friends. Pretty awesome birthday I must say.

Last night was so flipp'n awesome. Headed over to Jimmy's yesterday at like 1 in the afternoon. He was having a bbq before he was sent off to join the marines. It was pretty cool having the whole group together, everyone just goofin off with no drama. I'm really gonna miss Jimmy. We all won't be able to hang out like that again. Especially when Phirrip's gone.

Today's been a weird'n

I dunno..it started out pretty shitty..I just woke up drained of energy. I felt like shit all day..then finally got some company..Amanda and Jesse came over then we all headed over to Jesses to watch some guitar action. I didn't stay long..I was needing to talk to Hendricks about some stuff. So I left and came here. Talked to him for a bit then Dustin comes over. He just left actually..

But now..I feel weird again...

I don't really know what it is..

I'm listening to Backstreet Boys..(yeah that's weird in itself)...and I just feel ..well as the song says..incomplete..and I don't know why. I know it's not my relationship..or any of my friendships..cuz both are really great..but then what is it? Ya know what..actually I think I know..

It's one person..it's just really starting to upset me that they're basically gone ..